Where are you rn fellow girls?
Stage 5: I both know that I’m a girl and am consistently too depressed to do anything about it. Hrt is hard to get where I am and tbh I don’t have the energy to fight back against the world as they crush my spirit every day.
Affirming my gender is necessary for me to have the energy to get out of bed. I was literally nonfunctional before I came out. Starting and staying on e has been the driving force in my life for the past year. Why fight for myself if I hate who I am?
At the moment I’m not allowed to be even slightly feminine, as for why I fight tbh I feel like I’ve given up.
The only advice I can give is to look for support in your country. They’ll know what can and can’t be done. If you ever get the point of not being able to carry on, transition should be your only priority. At that point, you’d have nothing to lose.
#5 Depression
Haven’t started E yet Worried that it will become hard to get like ADHD Meds, also worried about my ADHD getting worse after E 🙍🏻♀️
My ADHD got better after e, but I also needed to lower the dosage. If the dosage was too high, taking meds had an opposite effect.
There’s a fascinating reason! Estrogen has a profound impact on your brain!
In addition to being one of the main hormones that is responsible for regulating the female reproductive system, estrogen also plays a role in cognitive function. It modulates the neurotransmitters serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine. These neurotransmitters help with focus, concentration, mood, and memory.
That’s why when a ciswoman with ADHD has a massive dip in estrogen (my body will essentially suddenly stop production of estrogen to trigger a period) their symptoms drastically worsen.
And why a person taking e might find their ADHD symptoms lessen!
Estrogen does so many things to almost every part of your body! It even improves liver functioning in a wide variety of animals, from livestock like chickens to humans of all sexes and genders. It makes you significantly healthier until menopause, where evolution effectively removes the advantages it provides. The same is probably true for testosterone lowering in males with age, as nature wants to take us out of the gene pool once we’ve served our purpose.
nyaaa <3
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